You feel the need to compete for attention, because you have been told winning a competition increases your “value”…
Why do you think or feel that competing increases your value, somehow?
You feel its all just “mate selection” and Im telling that is a facet of the patriarchy…
Im just gonna give you ine example.
I got to the gym, because it improves my health and abilities, allowing me to do more and do it longer. Because I like experiencing life, so it allows me to experience more.
You do it to get noticed. Why?
Bruh, its just as simple as that. Apply Occams Razor…
Because patriarchy.
Ok. Keep fighting for perceived value.
Some day, you’ll learn to love yourself, for no reason than just to love yourself.
Btw, I just finished recovering a dump truck with a come along today, and chopped about 3 weeks worth of wood. Ill do similar tomorrow.
Im betting your fitness training for attention has you in better shape than I.
Maybe someday you’ll wake up. Until then? Cheers!